It is so difficult being out of control. We do all that we can as fast as we can ~ and then wait. And wait. And wait. We knew the judge would be back last Monday and realistically, I knew we wouldn't be her first priority. I just hoped we wouldn't be too far down on the "to-do" list.
The entire last 4 1/2 months have been filled with getting p/w done, traveling, prepping for Christmas and then waiting for the Russian holidays to be over. Now what? For the last 7 days, I don't think I have fallen asleep before 1am...just tossing and turning with my mind racing endlessly. When my alarm goes off at 4:55am, I barely have the energy to turn it off. Is this just preparation for motherhood? I check my e-mail and iPhone about 50 times during the day just to see if there is a message from our dossier coordinator about KD, a court date, anything.
So, next steps? I'm going to start preparing for our trip as if we are leaving next week. I've been gathering together gifts to take for all the caregivers, toiletries, sippy cups, snack containers, clothes and toys for K, etc. My list grows everyday but when you have to plan to be out of country for atleast 3.5 weeks ~ there is so much to consider!
On a bright note, Dawn and Jeff leave next Saturday for Ekaterinburg to get their little boy and officially become his parents a week later. What a great way to spend Valentine's Day! Hopefully we won't be too far behind them. :)
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fingers crossed for you. I am in the same boat...
hope you get to return soon!
I remember those many sleepless nights, they were hard. I did exactly what you said you were going to do, prepared for him. I washed his clothes, fixed his room exaclty how I wanted it, sanitized toys, organized, anything to make me feel like I was doing something for him. I obsessively checked my e-mails, weather in Moscow, Moscow news, etc. I had Bible verses I held so close to my heart I think they are engraved there. 1 Samuel 1:27 was huge for me.
Just keep yourself as busy as you can, your time is coming even when it seems like it will never get here.
Well, let's get OFF this boat and get on one headed to RUSSIA!!! :)
Ahhhh, I know how you're feeling!
I got the monthly update from our agency today. The wait time changed from 6-8 months to 6-10 months. We're only waiting 5 mos. now, so this really doesn't make a huge difference, but just enough to put a damper on my day!
Praying your call comes soon!!!
gina
the waiting is so horrible! i sure hope the judge is looking at your paperwork right now :)
Hi You! I feel for you! I can tell you are struggling, when I was struggling (regarding my adoption but different issue), calling AO helped. Lori is my social worker and she helped a lot! Give it a try - maybe Michelle or Brent can give you a pep talk! Otherwise, always know your friends are here for you and you can have visions of K running around crazy at the Russian Christmas dinner next year!! Thinking of you!! Love, Donna
I would be tossing and turning too. You've been so patient, you have every right to be anxious. I can't wait for the day you return to the states with your baby girl. BTW, when you travel you have to find the time and energy to keep us posted every step of the way!
oohhh, I hope you get a date soon! It's got to be so hard, the waiting. Can't wait to hear the good news hopefully very SOON!
Love,
Karen Z
I was hoping you would get your court date soon. It would have been great having you here with us. We are just waiting too. I guess the waiting never stops. I can sympathize with you with the tossing and turning. Both Mike and I did that for months. I know your judge is back. We saw her when we went to court. Hopefully you are next on her list. Just curious, are Dawn and Jeff using Wide Horizons? Svetlana mentioned 2 families that are coming and will arrive on Monday. The judge has kept her quite busy preparing for their court dates. So much stuff to do on both sides, so much paperwork. UGH!
Melissa
HI, Laura!
thinking of you and hoping you follow your friends. i completely am with you as we wait for our travel dates as well, and sleep is not happening... Amy
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